the-bright-side

67th day of misery

2010-11-24T05:21:00.000-08:00

i am bored so i blog on my phone hahaha.lately i realize that the strongest emotion i have is the feeling of envy....i envy those who have really good friends...every day i look around and i see every 1 with their good frens.there is no need for lots of friends all you need is just 1 or 2 good 1s will do....on usually on my birthday it will be a normal day parents reluctant to buy present.lol and their presents are the only 1 i got.usually i dont really mind but this year after seeing all the people around me and stuff i now question myself which part of my life did it went wrong.i remember when it was my sisters birthday she went out with her frens and got showered with presents...den i will start to get really envious...den my recently its my grandfathers birthday the whole clan went to celebrate the thing is our birthday happen the be on the same week and they celebrated his birthday in advance...but no1 even knows my birthday was on november.the celebration went on and in my heart i was really crying...am i really that hated am i really that unwanted why this happen to me?for this i hated the 1 that controls all i hate him and when i die i will go to him and ask what did i do to deserve all this solitude.

day65 after u left...

2010-11-21T19:36:00.000-08:00

65 days have pass since u left and i am still missing u.every night i will ask myself the same question.what did i do wrong?was i too rude?too evil?too ignorant?too cunning?too selfish?too sensertive?or am i too ugly,dumb,lazy,weird?haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz idk....

missing you day 42

2010-10-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

42 days has passed since you left my life...today is halloween its brings back a very good memory when we went out last year on halloween...that can be considered 1 of the best day of my life.maybe this year you will be going there again well maybe i am already replaced by some other people.....the picture we took last year is still in my wallet when ever i am bored i will just take out my wallet and look at that picture and recall of the good times...now my life is just in a mess without u.....what did i do wrong?

2010-09-27T07:33:00.000-07:00

its so hard to forget you...its because i dont want to but i noe i need to.to prevent myself from getting hurt....its so hard because i see you almost everyday...and your little gifts that i keep with me even a small deformed bell from you is so precious...now you have changed...you use to be a quiet average girl that only hang out with your small circle of fren.but now you are way too pretty and not average anymore...i am sure theres lot of other guys thats chasing after you now...i proposely picked a fight cus of all these.haiz but i really cant forget you everyday without your sms is like apart of my life missing so i use your teddy bear and chocolates to replace them...i will soon get diabetese T.T wonder what happened to all my gifts hope you dun throw them away...

2010-08-23T08:42:00.000-07:00

ah long time never update cus idk why lazy.ok so start from this month haha.this month nothing special only suppose to watch movie with tammy and her frens.first is watch blood pledge but only orchard have so we were planning to go alr but den dun noe what happen become next week den next week come den her fren say too far dun wan go den i was damn wtf!!i feel like an idiot you noe!!alot of times cancelled alr ya noe!!!!very sad.haiz what to do forgive and forget of cus its impossible to forget.den a few weeks later.she ask me go watch what pck movie with one of her fren at first can den my mom suddenly go crazy call me in watch movie with her instead.so we plan to watch next week.but guess what happen!!in the end she say she went to watch the movie with her fren alr...its like wtf!!you make me wait for so long den in the end again it happen.and all you say is "paiseh" or "sorry".its like stabbing a person slowly and when the person dies you say paiseh hor.sometimes i think i am just being treated like some idiot.i may act like 1 its because it makes me forget abt the terrible place i am in ...haiz pillow soaked again... So putting sad things aside yesterday i went to watch boxing with my fren and her fren which i think is my fren hahaha.well it was rather fun though i dint really talk much during the match.after the match my fren went home so i went shopping with my frens fren haha.they were very fun to hang out with.i bought this a quite big bear for my fren.i buy cus i thought she would like it hahaha.when 1 finally dun feel so awkward we have to go home alr well too bad.maybe can talk in school which is unlikely to happen XD well end of compo and a little emoing hahahaha! xD

2010-06-15T09:50:00.000-07:00

yesterday went to wild wild wet with my cousins.when i was taking bus to bedok inter to meet them i got some awkward moments.i was standing in front of the seats for old people.den got this girl quite ok 1 hahahaha in front of me.so i listening song den i stare at her direction den i look at her den she say me looking and i say her looking den we both turn away at the same time.den awkward for some time den suddenly this lady with super weird hair board the bus den i we look at each other and laugh hahahaha.den when reaching the interchange that time my cousins alr there waiting 4 me.so we just wave to each other den my cousins and i go eat mac den after go wild wild wet.blah blah blah end here

2010-06-12T11:12:00.000-07:00

hmmm how to start...ok i just talk to this fren that was offered a job well not going to in into detail what job it is but...after what i heard the job was idk when but suddenly i feel very sad no no sad is not the word for it.its a very weird feeling like my heart was being compressed.but why?imagining that fren doing that job made me felt really worst but why!?although that fren dint take up that job i still have that feeling...maybe that job just oppose every thing i thought abt that fren or i am just worried that person will be taken advantage of... but of cus its just my imagination hahaha....well another sleepless nite caused by worries that i should not be worrying about....

2010-06-10T02:03:00.000-07:00

today really boring until i got time to blog...haha no i am actually muti tasking i am watching some tiawan drama what jui yao lai je ni.not bad ahr the show really funny.the yan(fruit) < direct traslation from english to chinese.aiya dun laugh i just dun noe the chinese pingying XD ah anyways the show really funny that tomboy girl very poor thing got dumb by her boy fren.the bf is such a jerk hahaha the showall the bad people all like money.haiz monye is not every thing really.aiyo got 1 part is show one lesbian omg!that part i faster skip.see there is a different between tom boy and lesbian.tom boy are some what fun to be around with but lesbian is kind of scary to me hahaha ok!end here go back to watching my show =D

2010-06-08T23:14:00.000-07:00

yesterday i read a book abt some singapore criminals there were male criminal and female criminal.almost all the female criminals are lesbians omg!reading abt the female criminals made me very afraid of something.because after reading it i knew that lesbians are a real thing now i am very afraid really afraid but i am not sure of what but i am just afraid....end here LOL

2010-05-30T10:59:00.000-07:00

another random thought in my mind i am going to extract from my brain into the blog so i can sleep.today as i look through alot of peoples blog and some of my memories i relise that people change over time.even me i realise that my close frens have change and have some new frens i never think i will talk to.but some frens will always stay by your side even though you dont talk to them that often.even those who hang out with me often like nigel and dylan there use to be 1 more person but he has some what changed.well nigel you also change but you are still there and dylan you never change hahaha.well when people walk out of your life you dont have to go after them cus its their choice not yours.unless they owe you money XD

2010-05-26T02:23:00.000-07:00

today really very hot and boring so hmmm so i will tell why i stead with my ex hahaha omg this is so bastard.well i stead with my ex becauxe i thought that she can make me forget abt some1 lol well that dint work.so the love isnt true so 1 bad day we broke up!lol so after 1week she got another new bf hahahahaha omg so fast 0.0!!haha end of post!!nothing much to write abt

ice skating!!

2010-05-13T07:29:00.000-07:00

today went iceskating with tammy lebelle and penny LOL!we meet after school at the mrt station den take to kallang.den we lost 4 awhile XD haha last time go out with them very awkward but now ok alr so very fun although i still dun talk alot cus they very random dun noe how to react hahaha.so we went kallang leisure park and eat lunch first den we go up to the iceskating ring.starting a abit wobbly den after awhile i remember how to skate liao tammy also quite good haha den lebelle keep falling hahahaha XD den one time tammy fall her finger get cut by some person skating pass.den i wan lend her my skiglove she dun wan den i see lebell also keep falling so i lend to her and i wear her durian seller glove hahahaha.den penny skate very slow hahaha.den my shoe lace lose den tammy help me tie den penny also come den suddenly noe person ram into them o.o den i think tammy hurt her hand again.after that every time i will stand near them when they stop.after that we go take bus back to tampines go manpuku eat icecream den go home!have a great great day end of essay XD

2010-05-02T12:58:00.000-07:00

ok suppose to sleep now but cant so i blog on my phone.ok so b4 blogging i went to facebook see every1 profile hahahaha den i realize that every 1 change.1 day your so called best fren will leave you.thats why humans cannot be trusted your family your frens all the same...ok so i never ever trust any1 b4 ^^ if i say to any1 that i trust any1 i was lying to avoid noise hahaha ^^ hmmm lets make some example hmmm you got this fren such a good 1 den 1 day tht fren like some1 den bye bye to your frenship of cus this does not apply to all the people.phew end of nonsense lazy continue.anyways its 4 me to read nia.disclaimer=this post does not refer to any1^^not happy come try kill me =D

2010-04-17T00:53:00.000-07:00

ello i today very sian so i decided to blog.alot me things happen the part few weeks hmmm for example my eyes dont require spects anymore haha and erm i shouted at the stupid lady boss that sits behind me hehe actually i dont like to scold or fight with people 1 lar i like to watch people fight and scold each other only hahaha XD AIYER stupid people act good and shout at people to keep quiet peakchek!!!arh!! Hmmm still got what happen leh ah yes i got a girl fren hehehe and no its not that person you are thinking of its some1 non of any1 that i noe knows.well shes the best^^ hahaha although she cannot sms much cus her sms only 500.but!her love to me is true!weeheee! Hmmm still got what else to say ermm ah i have alot of problems with my the damn maths and other stuff hmmm well just have to live with it haha.actually my view of life is like that>i am always on my own all the people around is just there to make use of you unless they are your family members.hmmm you must be thinking that i am not mature yet but think properly i do have a point.but honestly i am really childish hahaha i talk to my pencil case XD OK!end of my compo hahaha if you read until here you are alr half asleep i noe cus i can read your mind hahaha

2010-03-11T01:20:00.000-08:00

sian sia today so i am gonna post random stuff now i post my list of frens hahaha number 1 means the person i talk well with in person without arkwardness or bad point lol
boy:1.charlie: my best fren! girl:1.yunhui:the person who sits beside me
2.dylan he n nigel are close fite 2.yinning:sometimes i charlie n yunhui n yinning talk in a group it not sometime its most d time.

3.nigel 3.eunice
4.quehyi 4.yinghui:tour group fren
5.ukshey 5.xuanlin:tour group fren shares alot of common interest
6.khaixiang 6.wendy
7.nabihan 7.lebell
8.yangxian 8.farahin0.0?she always glare at me -.-
9.jiasheng 9.tammy?:she is the person i sms the most but we seldom
talk WTH!!!she kinds of ignore me when i talk 2
her =(
10.yangsheng 10.vivian:we only talk in msn n say hi 2 each other
in school but she is like very well behave
type and she not rude at all
u people should learn from her man!!!!
11.davin
12.ebby
13.junxiong:judo guy
14.afiq:pure soul
15.shami:in same cca judo sometimes i talk 2 him cus we both got no 1 to talk 2 =]

end of list hahaha i have abit of fren only got a bit more but i dont really count them in lol cus i dont talk 2 them....end of post!

heart pain!

2010-01-18T02:08:00.000-08:00

arhhh!this is the pain of falling 4 someone i told myself never ever to fall for or i will have a heartpain...that person told me never to catch love cus it kills lol at first i dont agree now i agree...haizzlast time we use to talk like 24/7 i also duno why we will talk from morning until at night around 1plus until one of us fall asleep.why we do that i dont noe.only lovers do that from what i noe but at that time i have no feelings 4 her...yeah although we sms each other alot we seldom talk to each other in person.now that i like her my heart hurts not cus she rejected me or what its because i am afraid that this would end our friendship...i foot even really noe why i like her...maybe cus she is different from other girls...heartpain!!!end post!!!

2009-11-27T10:09:00.000-08:00

ok again my crappy post no1 read it anyways to i just write what i want.ok today i want to talk abt what words i hate.rank 1 i hate the word whatever.rank2 i hate >zzzz< and rank 3!i hate dots!!like these>>......<< too many of it is irritating.haha.now to type people i hate.rank 1 i hate proud people!super hate them i feel like tearing their heads off!argh!i am angry even by thinking abt them!!next rank 2 i hate greedy people they are irritating!< it dont mean i am selfish okay -.-3rd i hate childish people people 1year below of is exception.why childish?not because they are lame in fact i love lame jokes haha.its because they are just too strate forward they dont admit wrong in fact they dont even noe when they are wrong haha i talk so much end of post!

2009-11-25T09:31:00.000-08:00

i made a "new friend".i think i am happy but am i?hmmm am i lying to myself?is this confusion omg my head hurts.i think i am just thinking why people are this way or what.is it a joke or is it serious zzzz my head !@$¿^ why!!??what did i do to deserve all these

my bay

2009-11-19T06:32:00.000-08:00

yeah!!!! today is my birthday so most of the people i dint expect to wish me happy birthday did wish me and those who i thought would wish me dint lol.anyways who cares if they dint anyways those who wished me thanks alot!!now 4 birthday wish lol ok i have alot of wishes actually well first is 4 people to treat me better well most people treat me really well but some just wont no matter what i do lol it really means alot if you treat some1 well u noe.now second wish hmmm have gf lol haha just kidding.alot of people say i have gf and the ans is nooooooooooooooooo ok anyways end of the wish part.today i want to watch 2012 with my family very nice movie.den went home eat cake done lol

2009-11-18T00:46:00.000-08:00

today i am gonna write im chinese so less people can understand lol.anyways 那天的blog post 那个“男”本来是个女的its like duh hahaanyways back to chinese 我说是男的so kapo 的人不会直到我在说什么。说实话本来我是有点喜欢她可是now我恨她!!!ok maybe 她在跟我开玩笑可是也有limit 的ma haiz end of POST!!!AND THOSE WHO ONE HOW TO READ YOU BETTER SHUT!

2009-11-03T17:45:00.000-08:00

last sat i went to escape with my friends.got the Halloween thing.wa reach there rain liao have to wait under the shelter.den al the retarted monster come out took a pic with the mummy but too dark cannot see the pic.den after saw joseph n quehyi.den i n my friends go que up for viking ship the only ride i took that day.den go play the 250 game den i win a dolphin!after tht go take neo print!! den i take cab home done!

santosa!!!

2009-09-20T05:21:00.000-07:00

today i went to santosa with alot of nigels and jason friends.they are part of what eh selfgroup thing.lazy to go into detail.had alot of fun there.dint really talk to many people cus i very shy >_>You hide your emotion sometimes .You are a moon type of person. You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are not happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to not burden your friends with your problems. You've faced some problems in your life. Your heart has been dealt blows before . You tend to think about things a lot more than other people, and you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about consequences. You are also the type of person that others often come to with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely, your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed. You usually are logical, and rely a lot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself. This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments, just like the moon has phases. Thanks for taking this quiz, I hope you enjoyed it

2009-09-15T01:38:00.000-07:00

hiya i am posting again!!like who cares XD.anyways yestrday was the first day of school so happy to see so many humans again.haiya this dylan arh fornothing come and remind me of her -_- i like forgot so long liao.haiya who cares the main part of the day is charlie chichoy and me go watch g force 3D!!after that we go eat japanese food!! so nice but i think i have allergies T_T haiya this font arh cannot make emotions -_- except for this one. anyway here are some pic>>haha chichoyme and charlie^^ chichoi took the pic

2009-09-11T00:59:00.000-07:00

yooooo i am back posting.so long never post liao again!i very lazy liao.anyways now my life is so boring.i think i am living like a zombie.i have no goals or anything.well my only goal is to watch my korean dramas n variety show haha.also now i like no interest in any one liao so chichoy u got your ans i have no girlfriend and neither am i going to "jio" anyone haha waste my time only jio people.but no one to jio very boring haha.end of my retarded post XD

haiz

2009-08-20T03:17:00.000-07:00

long time no update no mood or just lazy anyways nobody read1 so nvm now to my post.yesterday i saw her again arh!!!i duno why but i always see her that time also saw her at other place.den got one time she saw me but i never see her.what nonsense is this.den she say that she saw the person that she dont want to c as her facebook stat.she think i want to see her arh!!so i say her back n say that her profile pic look terrible XD haiz actually i also dont want to say that one when i say that i dont really feel good.i dont like to scold people.haiz i whish we could just be friends normal freinds!like who want more enemies than friends???i really dont want to quarrel with her anymore.

2009-07-18T00:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday i went to school on kairuls bike in the morning almost kena bang by bus XD den reach school kena kick out cus i have cough.den after in the afternoon went to meet nigel and ebby at ebby hous to meet my friend that i have never see before.nonsense they dont want to stop playing so by the time we got oout of house alr 1:55 surppose to meet my friend at 2 so we took a cab -_- all i pay lehs we reach just in time but my friend hevent come so we wait .WA!!suddenly a group of 10 people come together with my friend phew luckly i bought some friend.we went to airport to slack haiz i very quiet cus i got nothing to say when i first meet poeple.den nigel do all the talking go home i take cab also takeebby cus on the way diao forgot go home together with my friend haiz........

2009-07-10T02:41:00.000-07:00

haiz this week some one new poped out from nowhere into my life XD its a girl.she sms me ask if i am tom of cus i say yes.i ask how she know me she dont want to tell wth but one thing i know someone from school told her abt me.haiz we became great friends some how.she from a girls school must be very smart lol.o ya her name is CELESTE any one know where she come from??????

GSS ROCKS!!!

2009-07-04T00:25:00.000-07:00

this whole week every day go tm for fun.Go with nigle n chichoi.den friday go with chichoi,charlie,dylan and queh yi.I bought a new nike bottle.waa so damn ex!!$19.90 leh.i go tell my mom 3.80 nia she also belive XDD den in school need choose project group fifi n airaah n nigel want me to go their group with nigel den husna n farisha want me go their group -.- why awayls like that one arhhh.den i go airahh group in the end.siii bea paiseh hor farisha dont angry larh.den another example nigel call me go watch movie with him n his friend and charlie call me go tm shop with his friend again stuck in the middle -.-sorry hor nigel really paiseh hope this wont happen when kairul comes back to school i will be stuck in another situation again

2009-06-30T01:30:00.000-07:00

last friday was my sisters birthday also mj death day XD nothing much happen on her birthday cus she went out with her friend.that week i went to eat a buffet marathon tuesday went with Nigel n Chichoy wednesday went with cousins XD on sunday went to shop!!!!! for my sis bday present.she got a levi's sneekers den after went to shop 4 my belt bought from cotton on wanted to buy jacket but nvm.after we had dinner at one restaurant @ tm basement wa the guy cook in front of us n serve us XD so damn cool.den went home end

2009-06-14T20:01:00.000-07:00

last Saturday my grandmother passed away it happen so suddenly.i even went to visit her the day b4. my parents bought me to Marine parade 4 shopping when suddenly my grandmothers maid call n said that she have breathing difficulties we ruched down to her house @ sims drive by the time we reach there she passed away .i straight away cry i cried for hours cannot stop.every half an hour a relative come n they also cry when i see them cry i also will cry all my cousin did not talk for hours we just stand in the room where she passed away n said nothing for hours.even now i holding my tears.den that night i went to hospital in ambulance cus i have super high fever 40.9 3am in the morning did xray blood test all that den the doc say i have lung infection -.- hiaz cannot run alr.

2009-06-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

haiz this week so unlucky got every common sickness u can think of.wanted to go jogging @ reservoir but cant the flam is blocking my windpipes run half way can collapse -.-cough out the flam also got blood very scary.this Sunday going escape with my cousins yehhh. my cousin are my best friends they always keep their promises ask them to go out confirm can one if cant they will try their best to fit in the time.

scary kitty

2009-06-03T20:51:00.000-07:00

today morning i wanted to go out buy thing open the door suddenly hear one cat sound.i look around every where still cannot find the cat so i just walk out of my door den i kena heart attack the cat in front of me.the cat is a Siamese cat very x one too bad my mom dont let me keep cat after go eat my parrot. heres a pic >>>

rotten luck

2009-06-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

this is what happen this 2 week first i went for a hair cut den the barber cut hair thing spoil cut my hair like kena grenade explode at my face.den the next day i so worried until i have fever.after that i have flu.when i took my temperature i accidentally hit the wall den the thermometer spoil.hiaz wth.

oral test

2009-05-12T23:58:00.001-07:00

today science test yesterday my mom pour water on toms head when he came back from tution.she did that because i dint drink a single mouth of water from the bottle.den today after science test i went to wait 4 all my friends to come down.so lonely...after that they all come down sit at one table opposite the person that tom dont really lik forgot whats his name.his retarted friend started calling his name to make fun of him.after all his friend went to take oral exams den i went to hang out with my friends.sit in the canteen to wait for 12oclock.we see who can do weird dtuff like doing the hand wave or catching sweet into the mouth.den 12 liao went to hall.sit there sing all the retarted songs with my friend.den went to a chair to sit,just nice sit next roll is toms friend.dint bother to wave to her.den after oral swap with tom.tom ride bike den saw his friend again den he wave to her.after that my friend kai gave tom a free ride on his bike he sso retarted on the bike.after wnt home ;)end

eh

2009-03-29T06:23:00.000-07:00

today i wanted to go cycling but it was raining so i am stuck in the house with extra fats that i cant burn of.So i thought of a crazy idea of making muffins.So much work to do lucky my fridge have all the ingridient in it.make 4 like 1 hour than fin.den need to bake the muffin.this is one of the best part cus i can rest.so i watch okto.my fav show is on D grayman!!!(note i am not an animea freak!).the aroma of the muffin filled my living room.den watched fin liao just nice can eat dinner also.eat fin i treat my family with my dilicious muffins.(choc flavor).still left alot so tmr bring to school eat.

intro

2009-03-29T06:22:00.000-07:00

this is a blog that is very boring so dont blame me if u fall asleep! :)